Thoughts from “The Preacher’s Wife” ——
I wonder how many times in our lifetimes we have said something like, “Wow! What a coincidence!” I’ve come to believe over the last few years that there aren’t nearly as many coincidences in life as we think.
Of course, I’m aware that this isn’t a phenomenon revealed only to me, since there have been books written on this subject, probably the best known being Squire Rushnell’s “God Winks” books. It’s just that when a God-wink happens to me, personally, where it couldn’t be meant for anyone else, it brings it home in a very intimate way.
I’ve had such a “wink” this summer. I’ve been calling them my “accidental sunflowers” but this was no “accident”, and it was no “coincidence” either.
For a number of years I have tried to grow sunflowers. At first I just wanted to grow those great big, huge, sunflowers, but none came up. Then, I didn’t care what kind of sunflowers, just as long as it was a sunflower. From Florida (too wet?) to the desert of Southern California, (ok — too hot), to northwestern Wisconsin, (blamed that on long winters and summers that were too short) to Indiana (are you kidding me? This place is perfect for sunflowers! So, I blamed last year’s failure on myself for planting them too late.)
I gave up –– done. Stick-a-fork-in-me DONE with trying to grow sunflowers. Just wasn’t meant to be. Period. This was very disappointing, to me as it was truly a little “desire of my heart” to have my own sunflowers!
Except, after I planted my little perennial garden, and some perennials and annuals in the front yard, then prepared another bed for some tomato plants, out of that newly dug soil across the full length of the deck and house, sprouted some new little “weeds” I had never seen before. I am NOT a master gardener, but after pulling a few of those little “weeds” I had a feeling I could be wrong. They just didn’t seem like weeds. I decided to give them a few days and maybe I could tell what they were when they got a little bigger.
One morning, standing there looking down from my deck I suddenly said — SUNFLOWERS! I’ve got SUNFLOWERS! At first, I thought, “Of course –– bird feeder on each end of the deck; the birds are dropping them; wait — I thought the birds were EATING the seeds. Anyway, we’ve fed birds sunflower seeds for years now, and this has never happened before.” Every time I stepped out on the deck I would have a dialogue with myself about how that could have happened that way this one time. They were dispersed so evenly the whole length, not just near the two ends of the deck. As they continued to grow, it became clear to me that God was giving me a wink. Amusing me with His sense of humor, giving me something to smile about as I watched them grow. It was as if God was saying, “See, I DO care about even the seemingly insignificant desires of your heart.”
Isn’t that funny. When I let it go; when I decided I was DONE trying to do it myself, God said, “Well –– it’s about time you let me show you what I can do.” Isn’t that how it should be in our lives? We just want to do it ourselves. We don’t want to let go. We don’t want to admit that maybe we can’t do it ourselves. We keep our hands on it while God is just waiting to take over and surprise us with one of our little (and not so little) desires.
Take it from me — there are just times when we need to LET GO AND LET GOD. There is no end to His “winks”! Give Him a chance.
Just a thought ––
Faith